Fascinating

First I would like to thank everyone for their input and advice where I have asked for it. I really appreciate it.

Today Jock had an appointment with the counselor we all go to. He was not too sure what he felt the need to talk about. I reminded him we always come up with something and all would be well. I informed him that I was going to talk for about 10 minutes first and then we would call him in.

I went in and told her that I really need to figure out something to do with him. He really does seem to be insecure and is driving everyone nuts most days. I am positive that he has some form of ADD and see things in him that my parents and brothers complained of in me as a kid.


I don't want him feeling badly about himself of course. And I don't want a cycle with him labeling himself or feeling labeled a "troublemaker" and then just fulfilling that. We ended up talking about how similar he is to me and how in my childhood I felt like a nuisance and basically labeled myself a trouble maker. It was really fascinating.

We ended up talking a bit about choices I have made throughout my life and the ways my childhood and how I felt about myself played into those choices. We kept on meaning to bring him in, but an hour passed quickly. She said she wants to see Stud for the first half of our session next week and then call me in after she finds some stuff out from him about his childhood and various things. She wants to understand where both of us are coming from a bit better before she continues in helping us.


At any rate, I find the brain a truly fascinating organ. Two of my brothers and I have been discussing the possibility of me having a form of ADD. One of them reminded me of various behaviours I exhibited as a child and that was helpful for me to tell the counselor today also. I have been talking with my Mum (Clown says we must spell that this way since that is how we pronounce it!) more recently also and she reminded me of some things. Maybe we will get all this figured out sooner rather than later!

I have been very bad about walking and yoga in the mornings this week. Stud has had a lot of work to do and has been working a bit late and then getting up at 5:30 to get to the office at a good time. They have a deadline coming up. I normally get up at 5:30 or 6 to walk and I don't feel good about doing that when he is not home. I usually don't get back to the house until 7 and I don't want the kids in the house by themselves, even though they ARE sleeping. Clown gets up earlier than the others and I don't want him scared or anything.


I can't wait until next week when I can get up and go walking again! I still have no excuse to not do my Yoga. But I admit to relishing the sleeping until 7:30! Been most refreshing, even though I feel so lazy.

We have our Homeschooling Easter Party and Egg hunt tomorrow. I have 4 dozen cupcakes to make in the morning, as well as locate their baskets and get other things ready. So I better hit the sack!